It’s hilarious that we live in a society that will shame you for how much sex you have and for the junk food you eat. Like, wow, how dare you eat delicious foods and have orgasms, you’re a monster. Enjoy your miserable life filled with pleasures.
Demons do exist
And they thrive
Destroying the smiles and very insides of all i hoped to
These demons catch me on every flight
Never miss a mile or corner for escape
Being trapped is not having a way out
But being suffocated is not knowing how to get there
After a beautiful dinner of fettuccini pasta with mushrooms and clams accompanied by a half liter of house white wine, im mellow enough to vent. Rome is truly beautiful. A city i have never been before but because of my love for the cuisine has always had my heart. And the food ive encountered in these 3 days has been truly spectacular. A magnificently fresh seafood salad (shrimps, mussels, calamari, octopus) … Spinach n cheese ravioli in a butter sage sauce.. Pizza to die for.. And gelato to make yu never want to eat ice cream again. Tiramisu, prosecco, white wine…im pretty sure i can just write a mile of all the food i ate. None the less, i covered the entire city and the Vatican ontop of stuffing my face to content. There is no denying rome is breathtaking.. The trevi fountain honestly is done no justice until its witnessed in person. The spanish steps offer an amazing view. The colosseum is a sight to behold. Right along with the Roman forum, all that history is still there. Old yet standing and making its statement that the Romans had a rule that resonate throughout all of Europe. The romans conquered then to still hold relevance now. Yet amongst all this beauty i cant help but feel resentment. Why? Many could say simply im a bitter black woman. To others i many come across as a humanitarian. But for all this beauty wrapped up in churches and monuments made of unspeakably rich marble and gold, what about those that were hurt in the process. Why honor rome for all its glory when majority of its gold is stolen from Africa. A continent starving by the excessive greed of others to keep up appearances. On the extreme end, saint peters basilica is adorned in gold, so much so to probably save world hungry if it were broken down and distributed. But way more minuscule is a small church i stumbled upon during my voyage. No large crowd to take in its beauty. Tucked away to simply be and wait for mass to attract its faithful followers. Yet the small space held more gold to scale than st peters. Does anyone see issue with this? We have a world that is in crisis. People are being murdered, children stealing from parents, wars galore… And the basis of it all is money. So much money has been thrown into these churches n remain untouched due to the holy n sacred place religion makes of church. I can only speak for myself but this is absolute bullshit. This is a prominent show of wealth, a battle for affluence, and exploitation of Christianity as a confirmation of excess. When people realize worship is about the personal connection and not the amount of marble used to build a church, maybe then ill have more faith in humankind. All in all, i love rome. I love to travel, see new places, learn things that dont transcend through a picture or wiki page. Still, my heart cries for the lands robbed in the process, the wars fought under Christianity as a disguise, and all those forgotten in the process. Stealing is a sin, so in killing but let the Romans tell it so their land can be justified. Beauty is subjective. And in Rome i see a facade of beauty to hide the grotesque actuality of life like the warriors who were made to fight for theirs under the thousands of spectators in the colosseum for sport.